Dear Man I once knew,
If only you knew of the struggles a female has to face in a world without a male figure lighting the dark roads ahead. I threw out the fear of loneliness from my life because it isn’t going to get me very far. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, I empowered my self and became my own shield. I learned to move forward with confidence and strength; never to look back and think of what could have been or should have been. It is what it is, and I am happy where I am in life and am optimistic about the future. One by one goals are being achieved and dreams are becoming reality. Life may not be easy and it does stress me out at times, but my will power and determination keep me going.
I used to hate you and blame you for everything wrong in my life, but now I thank you. Without your gap in my life I wouldn’t be who I am today; a strong-willed independent woman who has the world waiting for her to take it by storm. I learned that you don’t need a man in your life to be successful or happy. We as individuals are our own greatest strength and weakness. I take pride in the fact that I am where I am today and have achieved so much without someone leading the way for me. Life is challenging and a continuous struggle to pave a way for my younger siblings, but knowing that I am saving them the struggle and pain of creating it themselves is a sufficient reason to keep me going. No one was there for me during my achievements and downfalls, but I will always make sure that I will be there every step of the way for my siblings; like a shadow, having their back on every step of the way. I am proud of where my family stands today and am grateful that we had the opportunity to create our own foundation and base.
No one stands with you during times of sorrow and problems; those that do standby your side are the people who really care about us. There is an abundance of people in life that will be present during good times, but not very many of them stick around during bad times. Sincerity is what I ask for and seek in individuals. I am guarded, but that is because you have forced me to build these defensive walls to protect myself from people who will disappoint me in life; like yourself.
Now you’re trying to come back into my life, but it is too late; the man that I once knew has become a stranger and I refuse to trust this shadow from my past. I admit I walk around with sharpened swords guarding myself from unforeseen dangers lurking in dark corners; however, when rivals strike I posses the strength and audacity to melt the swords into shields of armor to protect those I love.
You ask, “When will you surrender?”
The day you drop your sword and stop attacking. . .
Inspiration: The effects of single parenting on children.